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What is an emotion?
An emotion is energy. Unconscious or conscious, they can all be transformed through understanding. To illustrate this; Love can turn into hate, vice versa.
Why do we fear this energy? Why we want to dispose them? Why have we been misguided into believing the notion that we can completely rid ourselves of emotion when in actuality the emotions that we have fooled ourselves into thinking have been magically disposed into thin air are simply driven deeper within the unconscious. Ironically the denial of emotion is an emotion itself, and this is the emotion that you are feeling, fear. I assure you that this way of living isn’t really living. It is not healthy. Once upon a time I manufactured myself as a soul, a being without any emotion. Key word: Manufactured. This person wasn’t real. I rejected a part of me because but at the time this person fit with the ideal me I had created for myself. I was a phony!
You either identify with your mind or you fight it. You can indulge, or you can create an anti-attitude, avoiding any sort of transformation in the mind. Why fight yourself, take revenge upon yourself, yield to yourself, and in the end be defeated by yourself?
The only way any human knows how to deal with emotion is by repression or expression.
With repression, we are never at ease. Once we repress energy (emotion) we become incapable of expressing anything else either because everything is connected inside. There are no watertight compartments between each emotion inside of us. When we choose to repress, every other emotion/energy will be false. It will be of less quality, and we will always be afraid of moving deeper into whatever it is we are feeling because subconsciously we know that all of what we have tried to dismiss may arise.
Accept the energy (emotion) and try to understand the mechanism behind it. Accepting the energy makes you the source. The moment you understand your emotion is the moment you can channel it. Also know that acceptance of this emotion doesn’t mean resignation. In steps logic.
You can choose to avoid it in subtle ways—pretend that it is not there, think about something else, create a facade, justify it, but it still exists. This repression is a dead end. Get over your self-image and accept it. The energies of emotions are always there—it is a question of whether you use them of they use you.
to me, one of the most excruciating realities of masculinity in this society is the disallowance of emotion. because emotions are feminized and femininity is largely demonized as weak and inferior, they are seen as having little to no value in a man’s life. the result is a poisonous withholding of important information of self that leads to eventual and inevitable rage that is grossly validated and rewarded— and projected onto those closest. this anger that is validated as ‘manly’ functions to hide their neglected emotional core and processes. this, too, hurts men themselves, women and our community.